Getting closer to the present

This blog has a finite duration to it.

I suspected that when I started writing it. A history goes from then to now. And because I don't want this to be a daily diary, telling you of every detail of my life, it's pretty much a foregone fact that I won't be writing it forever.

Up to now, I'd been telling you pretty detailed accounts of one relationship after another. And there was a goal, which was to give you a sense of the way my fetish was integrating into my life. The comments that I have received on here led me to believe that, largely, the fetish has been somewhat dissimilar in terms of its role, compared to other people out there in our fetish community. I don't feel alone. I don't feel unaccepted. I don't feel unacceptable. But I recognize that my guilt and duality around the subject is not the majority case. It's a fraction of the community.

So relating every detail of these relationships, while interesting, maybe didn't provide you much more than an interesting read, and perhaps something to think about with respect to your own set of circumstances, whatever those may be.

I want to do a little bit of glossing over things, with the goal of not providing more attention than is necessary, to details that are not really providing useful context. The original purpose of this blog was to help me deal with my own feelings around the subject. I am fast realizing that having open communication in a relationship with my partner about the fetish, and perhaps discussing it with a therapist, are ultimately more effective.

But I still have story to tell. And I wanted this to be a history that took me from then to now. So I will tell this story.